As I think many artists can agree, the tortured artist thing is real. Mostly in the sense that artists always feel like they can do better. They’ve got more in their heads just waiting to come out. Sometimes when it comes out it’s not how we pictured it in our heads. Sometimes our skills don’t match our imagination. Sometimes the materials and mediums won’t do what you want them to do (or you don’t know what you are doing so you are just testing it out).
I don’t paint enough to give myself too hard of a time about it, but when a painting doesn’t turn out how I wanted it too I get really frustrated, especially because I don’t like to waste paint. It’s something I just need to deal with as part of the process, but just know before you judge someone’s work, there’s a lot of emotion, thought, and time wrapped up in it. It’s a very emotional thing to create something and put it out there. Artists should be able to handle constructive criticism, and any viewer is allowed to their opinion about a piece — and to like or dislike a painting. Even if I don’t like a work of art, I still appreciate everything that went into creating it. I know how hard it can be to be on the other end of the criticism.
Having said all that, tomorrow is the first time my work will be on display somewhere besides my home, my office, or a commissioned piece. Salon Simis in Fairfax, VA doubles as a gallery, and will have my work on display for the next few months. Tomorrow evening (11.20.14) is the opening reception from 5-8pm (10090 Main Street, Fairfax, VA 22031). Everyone is invited to stop by, see the work and say hello (there will be food & drinks). Would love to meet you if you want to come.
People keep asking me if I’m excited. I am of course, but it sort of feels like walking into a room naked. I feel very exposed. I think putting yourself out there in uncomfortable situations can be a good thing. It means you are growing and challenging yourself. I’m so honored they wanted my work in their space.